Laughter like song

Sometimes when I hear

myself laugh

Its like I'm hearing your laugh

that used to mix with mine

I miss that sound

It was like a song

It brings me back 

for a moment

to that sweet place 

To that deep place

of friendship 

of knowing and safety

of heart to heart

Do you still think of me?

Do you ever hear me

when you laugh?

Do you still laugh 

the same way?

Has life given you

many reasons

to smile and 

to laugh

I hope so because 

Your laugh is like song

A song I'll never forget

I WILL NOT FORGET

Spring beckons me 

Seedlings break the winter

The rains are welcomed

The night was so long 

You held me close 

You carried me 

When I couldn’t even crawl 

On my death bed

You breathed your breath into me 

Your mouth to mouth life 

Kept me breathing 

I will never forget your kisses of kindness in the depths of darkness 

Now I know you 

Now you know me 

You’re my morning star 

My light in the deep dark 

That promises the dawn 

Now I see the first light of sunrise 

But I will never forget this dark night 

When the fires of grief threatened my bare body 

When the waters tried to drown me 

When it was just you and I 

Intimately entwined 

Secluded in intimate suffering love 

The oil of myrrh drenched my soul every hour 

And you never left me 

Now my heart sings a soft love song 

To awaken this dawn 

I feel the morning dew on my bare feet 

As we walk together into the garden 

Look! the seedlings are here

They have arrived

I know what’s coming and I’m grateful 

But I will never forget your mercy in the depth of darkness 

The way you held me 

In the dead of the winter night

The Eternal Bridge

All the tree stars have fallen 

But Gods freckles still shine for us 

Just look up and you’ll see them 
Together with the northern lights 

Still shining and dancing just for you 

I know you love to run free 

In fields of Passionflowers 

I love it when you’re fearless 

And laugh in my favorite melody 

Don’t be afraid sister 

It’s all gonna be okay 

I know you’re hurting too 

I can still feel you 

Some really beautiful moments you’ve had

Adventuring into unknowns and the new 

I’m proud of you

Here take these sunflowers 

Let them bring you joy 

Take my heart again 

She never left you

She never will 

I remember it all

All the magic beauty and joy 

I remember songs we loved 

Dances we danced 

Countries who greeted us 
Poetry and paintings

The nights under weighted blankets 

And France 

Oh I remember the pain and knives too 

And the deepest wound of my life that broke my heart 
And even broke my unbreakable spirit 

but

Don’t cry for me 

I’ll see you again 

On the other side of the eternal bridge 

We couldn’t get there from here 

I know we fought so hard 

We did our best 

We both did our best 

Eternity waits for us 

Is it wrong I wanna go there soon ...

I will greet you when you arrive 

I'll run to you 
Through fields of strawberries and passion flowers 
Under a sky of n orthern lights and Gods freckles

Tree stars will circle and dance around us as we embrace
And heaven will see tears of joy that day 

Jesus will kiss our faces

And welcome us back to our home 

I’ll show you my garden 
That used to hold a beautiful tree that was burned down 

But now there’s a foot bridge and a sparkling river and a tiny sailboat that holds my memories of you

We will stand there together on that bridge 
Fully Whole and fully loved and fully known
In infinite reconciliation 
With covenant redemption 
Where weapons of war are no longer
Where there is no more struggle, wounding or illness

Where fear cannot separate us and shame will have no voice 

Where our spirits will understand it all

And love will NEVER fail us
Let heaven come

I saw God

I saw God in the slums yesterday
He was just a small little boy
I tickled him til he laughed and cried then flew away
and we were filled with so much joy

I saw God on her knees yesterday
Tears ran down she was overcome
I shared my food with her family
and I was the one who was left undone

I've been looking looking looking for Him
and I have found Him time and again

I saw God in the slums yesterday
He was a crippled man with a bachelor's degree
He said can you help me find a job
But I gave him what I had and he found eternity

I saw God in my house yesterday
She was just a small little girl
Broken body and a broken heart
and I took her I took her into my arms
As she cried love came down
When I looked at her again she was wearing a crown

I've been looking looking looking for Him
and I found have Him time and again

I saw God in the village yesterday
She was a woman who couldn't speak or hear
We prayed a prayer of faith and decided to believe
We wept as she spoke for the first time in 20 years

I've been looking looking looking for Him
and I found have Him time and again

House

I'm an empty house 

All my doors are closed 

I've only had a few visitors 

But no one ever called me home 

You call me to open the windows 

Let the sunshine come inside 

Feel the breeze blowing on my skin 

Oh how I love the light 

And for you all the doors have been opened 

So come in and have some wine 

We can dance in the kitchen 

Travel down to the basement of my mind 

I'll get lost in your eyes by the fire 

You unlock hidden places with your gaze 

Chase me up the stairs like a child  

In the bedroom of my heart always 

My Constant

When shadows shift and sand gives way 

When change comes in a hurricane 

When a layer is ripped torn off my heart 

It seems I've lost yet another part 

When I'm left with an empty nest 

And nothing seems to give me rest 

Solitude comes with her deafening screams  

No The world is not as it should be 

You're my constant my steady hand 

My hero in this foreign land 

You're the only One who really understands 

Always there to listen to every stand 

When debris is slashed through the stormy winds 

And darkness becomes a hidden friend 

The world swirls in whirls and twirls 

Still you are my surprising end 

A silent stillness in the chaotic race 

A cave within lit by candles and grace 

Peace sings her song in this secret place 

And I lean in to the strength of your face 

My anchor through the wave upon wave 

My forever rock my steady always 

Fire

Fire fire I'm on fire 

Pieces pieces I'm in pieces 

Scattered like a firework 

On the Fourth of July 

You always break in 

With your silence 

Or with your words 

I cannot stop 

These white water rapids 

From gushing 

I cannot lock my heart 

The dam is broken 

Fire fire I'm on fire 

Pieces pieces I'm in pieces 

Shooting like a meteor shower 

I am out of my skin